I sat there in front of you
I thought of everything that had ever broken me
I thought of everything that ever shattered my heart
In that moment when I looked at you
I thought of how I used to think
I should tell you all of that someday
In that moment though I just exhaled
I spoke nothing on any of it...
Because all of it made sense now
Because none of it make sense now
कितना सकून था उन मुलाकातों में
जहा लब्जो से जयादा आँखें बोलती थी।
हम थे और वक्त था। हर चीज जैसे हमारे लिए ही थी !
ना साथ का छूटना ना दूर होने का डर।
ना वक्त का तकाज़ा ना किसी बात की चिंता !
दुनिया सारी एक तरफ। वो मुलाकात एक तरफ।
जरा जरा सी बात पर। घंटो बातें करना।
और जब चुप होना। तो इतना परेशां होना !
खुश होने का मतलब समझना आसान था .. ।
और जब मुलाकात खत्म होती।
अगली के इंतज़ार मैं और पिछली की याद में !
यादें बनती गई !
In the blink of an eye another day is gone
In the blink of an eye another week is gone
In the blink of an eye another month is gone
In the blink of an eye another year is gone
And in the blink of an eye I will be gone too
And not just me but also may be you..
Wondering.. why do I stand here ... wishin and hopin
Its so hard to keep these eyes open
To see and appreciate all that I can see
And learn how we can be... the best that we can be?
I know ..its too late
Time flies and does not wait
Weather we have just one life or many, one thing is true
There are many secrets left to be shared and stories to come through …
When you find someone, who is true to their own soul, who has taken all the time, to find out their own pains, to heals themselves and created the strength to get out of it.. ❤️ They are able to commit to you.
They need to be true to their ESSENCE.
And that takes wisdom, soul searching, falling down and standing up. When you have seen both the darkest and the lightest places, you are able to ‘see’ your reflection in someone else, that connects the soul.
When the souls connect they can be in a room with anyone else or can travel the world without them, they can have thousands of friends but the energy cord remains connected from the heart.
A Soul-to-Soul Love Relationship is an opportunity for two people to “Heal the Emotional Wounds”of the past.
But the deeper work is carried when two souls seeing the issues that trigger each other as a GIFT. When you recognize the soul the gift that they bring is not only love but also a mirror to face yourself.
And this is the greatest test …
weather you will face the darkness within and run and hide, or stay and confront your fears and surrender .. if love exist, circumstances is an excuse.
Love can’t wait to give what is true and honorable.
Love mends. Love is effort.
बातों से निकलती हैं बातें
इसीलिए ज़रूरी होती है बातें
फूलों सी महकती
हवा सी हलकी बातें
मिटटी की खुशबु सी
बारिश के जैसी बाते !!
बातें जो निकली अगर
दूर तक जाती हैं
दूर चली जाएं जितना
यादें बन कर छोड़ जाती हैं बातें !!
दूर चली गयी बातें
वापस नहीं आ पाती हैं
रह जाती हैं जो मन मैं
आंसू या मुसकान
बन कर ही बहार आती हैं !!
इसलिए कभी सुन लेना मेरी
कभी कह लेना अपनी
जैसी भी हो बातें
कीमती होती हैं बातें !!
हो एक जहांन ऐसा जहां,
मन में कोई उलझन न हो,
न शोर हो न हो हलचल कोई,
लोगों का जहां कोई जोर न हो,
कुछ सितारे हो, हो इक चांद जहां,
जहां रूठने ,बिछड़ने का दस्तूर न हो,
हो थोड़ी सी चांदनी बस जहां,
जहां दिल की बातों से बड़ी कोई बात न हो .!
किसी के लिए जीवन जादू है
किसी के लिए अजूबा है
रात चाहे जैसी भी हो
चाँद ख़ामोशी में डूबा है
इंतज़ार चाहे जितना लम्बा हो
वो पलआएगा ही जो तुमने सोचा है
समय चाहे जैसी भी हो
सबको भाग्य ने बदला है
क़िस्मत चाहे जैसी भी हो
अपनी दोस्ती पे मुझे हमेशा नाज़ है
No control on destiny so sometimes just chill…
Go with the flow or sometimes stand still !
It’s okay to fall it’s okay to fail but learn…
There might be a reason for every heartburn !
Sometimes people make efforts to stay sometimes walk away …
Sometimes our fault sometimes circumstances play !
Can’t live by letting go of what’s gone ..
Can’t block memories by blocking on phone !
Love is bigger than setbacks…
Light is important than melted wax!
I dream of a perceived reality,
Standing on the edge of an abyss,
Waiting, hoping, and dreaming,
But only for the energy of true love's kiss.
Happiness will enter,
And happiness leaves,
Life is a journey,
But wears the heart on its sleeves
We must have met here for some reasons,
To call back all our pieces and to learn lessons,
Separation could be just an illusion
But deadly enough to stir a confusion.
बेपनाह चाहना क्या है ?
इतना की वो सोच भी न सके,
इतना कि तुमने भी कभी सोचा न हो,
इतनी खुशियां जो आँखों मैं झलके ,
इतना क़ीमती की जैसे उस लम्हे को रोक ले ज़िन्दगी भर के लिए
इतना कि कभी कभी गुरूर हो,
इतनी शिद्दत की हमारी दोस्ती कभी मजबूर न हो ,
इतना की कोई उतर नहीं सकता गहराईयों में इस तरह ,
इतना कि मेरी हर बात का एहसास हो तुझे किस तरह ,
इतना कि वो तुमसे कुछ छिपा न सके,
इतना कि मैं कुछ छिपा न सकूं
इतना कि वो जब तक रहे खुद में महसुस करें,
इतना कि जब वो अलग हो ज़िदगी भर याद करें !!!
Surrender
There is a clear distinction between power and control. We can have the power of internal control but we have no external control over other people or situations.
Every soul has its own unique path. No matter what!
Soul has a path and we possess the internal power to control it but we need to surrender to the illusion that we can externally control another soul.
From time to time the ego will rise up and demand the things to be done in a certain way. Then its time to surrender again...
Willing to accept that things were supposed to happen the way they did ...weather or not we can understand why!
We can ache all what we want over the intricate details, fighting against the devastation it caused but battling with reality is always a loosing game.
The hope and wish is the mere attachment to how things should have happened which causes disappointments.
Surrender is to accept what is right now!
Its true we’ve been through some hard stuff
Testing not just the connection but us
The pain that feels like ripping the heart.
Those are the times, when it was tough to see
My heart has failed to discern,
But I’m grateful that you’re my person,
Who both calms me and stirs my spirit,
For in your arms, I am always home.
Hey
I hope you are doing well
Since we don't meet halfway on the only open road we had
All I do is to wait for you to show up and not be mad
I wish I knew the reason why we stopped the communication
But seems like you don't care about my mind going in different direction
Just remember I will always hold onto your love forever
And you will find me if you look for me a little harder
There is a pain that comes from the hole in my soul with you being gone
Its unexplainable, undeniable and so hard to be shown
You have taught me to not feel lost, loose grip or go down
So keep me in your heart even when I am not around
Each and every moment with you is a story and a message
You remember, how we came out stronger after the damage ?
Love and Light
Maybe we should have made more memories
Maybe we could have asked the time to freeze
Maybe we should have savored the time we shared
Maybe we could have also shown how much we cared
Maybe we should have understood each other better in every way
Maybe we could have said things that we were afraid to say
Maybe we should have had more conversations
Maybe we could have talked about our frustrations
"Maybe" is an illusion that never happened because of limitations
After all "Maybe" is just a maybe… just a temptation.
One day when you cant find me near
say my name to call me here
I will try my best to calm your dismay
Moving mountains from our way
One day when I am a glowing star
do not think of me as far
I will seek joy with you in every day
Wanting to be with you all the way
One day when the time is gone
do not think of yourself as alone
I will wish for another life with you to slay
Loving you will be same, just like today
A soul can be tired but still wait
A mind can be dark but still dream
A heart can be broken but still be in love
A body can be in pain but still fight
A life can have wounds but still be beautiful
A friendship can be unexpected but still be the best
A faith can be a battle but still be the answer
A hope can be a struggle but still be the best choice
A love can be a heartache but still be the shelter
As july wrapped up and the year got older
Autumn days will shorten and grow colder
The leaves will shake from the trees and colors will get bolder
Life perhaps will go on...
Fall will then lead the year towards the ending
Quieter days, dark evenings and warm sweater things
Christmas will come and then the snow that winter brings
Life perhaps will go on ..
Winter will pass and days will lengthen into a brand new year
The ice will melt in the pasture pond and spring will be here
Sights, sounds and smell will change but not the story, my dear
Life perhaps will go on...
Time is neither a friend nor the foe
It does not wait for anywho
Moving so slowly while I wait and shed a tear
It swiftly took over my heart with hope and fear
Thinking of how short it felt when it was all fun
It seems so long now in the absence of my favorite one
Love keeps the circle of time - going and flowing
Things that matter in life - it sure has a way of showing.
I want to be ...
The first thought of the day
The touch that stays
The meeting after staying apart
The long drive on unknown road
The short walk on the known path
The random call to talk about season
The pure laugh for no reason
The electrifying kiss that has a story of its own
The memory of favorite cologne
The healing hug that lasts awhile
The dream that brings the smile
The everything you need
The everything we got !!
Happy personality and sad soul
Bold for everyone, shy with you
Heartless in all feels, loving you hard
Solitude Being, craving you much
Hurting in hell, working to heal
Open to change, loyal to you
Dedicated to growth, self sabotage too well
Looking for peace, okay with chaos
Letting go of everything, clinging onto you
In search of balance, Holding you forever !!
Its not your fault I take you seriously
Its not your fault I believe every word you say
Its not your fault I am this way.
Its not my fault I liked my glow
Its not my fault that I wanted to be the flow
Its not my fault, now I don't know where I am going to go
We just ended up in a delicate situation
Coz we were just recognising our soul connection.
It cant be just life teaching a lesson
Love is nothing but sharing life with your person !
I wonder about you every day
Never see you coming my way
But leaving you behind
Is something I can't begin to find
So I think about you all the time
And I wonder if you think of me that ways
Unexplained, unrelenting game my mind plays
All the smiles , stories and our inside jokes
So I wonder if you remember the last words we spoke.
I don't know what to call it
The thing inside, the fire within
That desire to find myself again where it all begin
I ll hold on to it for rest of my days
Going through this life in most interesting ways
जब भी शब्दों को लिखती हु मैं
यूँ लगता है जैसे तुम सामने हो मेरे
हर एक शब्द के मायने
तुम तक सिमित हो गए हो जैसे
फिर जब भी उन शब्दों को पढ़ती हूँ मैं
यूँ लगता है जैसे सब कुछ केह दिया हो मैंने
हर एक शब्द में
कोई कहानी बसी हो जैसे
जब भी सोचती हूँ उन शब्दों मे क्या है
यूँ लगता है जैसे ख़ास सी उलझने है मेरी
हर एक शब्द ने
सुलझा रखा हो सबकुछ जैसे
When there is no us in love
When there is no friend in pain
When there is no laughter in tears
When there is no depth in words
When my heart cries while beating
When all that remains is breathing
When time just goes by in waiting
When all I do is searching
When all the thoughts lead only to you
When the journey is this alone
When its hard to come to terms
I miss us!
I had a rosebush in my yard
Poor thing was falling apart
I felt sad looking at its state
Uprooting it could have been its only fate
It was a part of my life and I let it be
Life got me in stride and I could not see
It may have been waiting for me to set it free
It was just a matter of time and all my fault maybe
One day I went to check on it for some reason
It was gone just like it was suppose to happen
Dead and lifeless, unbothered and unloved
It crumbled and withered, without a sound, into the mud
I didn't cry for letting it go that night
I think it deserved a better life, right ?
I cry for all the memories we made
All the "forevers" and "I am here for you" we shared
There is no beauty in unfinished things
A story , relationship or any cravings
They bring a feeling of dissatisfaction
A lull, a disappointment or even depression
Multiple versions of ending exists
With a long list of all "What ifs"
Tons of things to blame upon
Communication, timing, situation and so on
Heart keeps questioning and looking for answers
Settling, accepting and closing must have some powers
Why complicate when we can keep it simple stupid
Not everyone is ready for all the bullshit
Secretly wishing you wake me up one day
and I ll forget the pain
I ll look into your eyes and things will be same
Secretly wishing you ll make me laugh one day
and my tears go away
I ll vibe with your mood and hearts will play
Secretly wishing you will ask me out one day
and I ll dress my best
I ll look pretty and your eyes can do the rest
Secretly wishing you hug me one day
and all my doubts will melt
I ll promise to hold your heart and you ll remember how it felt
I will always wonder
Every time I look at moon
Were we destined to meet ?
or was it just sweet luck ?
how our memories have left me awestruck !
I will always wonder
Every time I look at moon
Were we just temporary ?
or was it suppose to last ?
how our promises have my heart beat so fast !
I will always wonder
Every time I look at moon
how much have we changed ?
or was it time to loose the grip now ?
how fondly I keep thinking of you somehow !
I will always wonder
Every time I look at moon
Will I be able to tell you ever how my day went ?
Or Is there something you wish I knew ?
how patiently I believe I am very close to you ...
I will always wonder
Every time I look at moon
Does love make you empty ?
Or it can make you whole?
How blissful is this feeling that ..you are part of my soul....
I just wanted you to know
That I ll never care
How far you push me away
Because when I told you
That I would stay
I meant it in every way
I just wanted you to know
We are lost
We are damaged
But I hope, we hold on to a fond illusion
Till our belief harmonize
And we alleviate this pain
I just wanted you to know
In all my brokenness
I will always look for you
Cherishing those memories
To feel you with me too.
दुनिया बदल जाती है किसी ऐसे पल के बाद
वो छोटी सी बात दे जाती है ज़िंदगी भर की याद
जो वक़्त गुज़र गया जैसे एक ख्वाब था
साथ एक पल का था मगर लाजवाब था
भूलने की उन पलो की कोशिश रहेगी नकामायब
सोचना ये है के की जीना है किस उम्मीद के साथ
सूखते नहीं है हंजू , बस सोचती हु की सभ्र कहाँ से लाऊँ
हलचल होती है जैसे, लगता है कहीं दूर भाग जाऊ
Sometimes against all odds and all logic, I hope.
I hope that it is going to be okay.
I will get my smile back and all sorrows will melt away
Thinking about what I was brings me joy.
I was love, I was laughter and I was born to fly
Grateful for that feeling of home, longing and craving, every single day.
The life unfolds in its own ways
No control when destiny plays
Walking through peaks and valleys
I am certain, you will find me from far far away
My love and devotion will never change even if the world falls apart
Its pure and clean and you must know
Even though I may nor show
Sometimes against all odds and all logic, I know
I know, it is all going to be okay.
From the love and care to lesson and despair.
Was it a dream or was it another lifetime, she was unaware
While the eyes were heaven and aura was the shelter
Living those memories are enough to melt her !
Searching for herself in every moon and every sunshine
Journey to meet her soul again will lead her to the Divine
Boundlessly grateful and eternally blissed for setting her soul free
Trusting every moment with her open heart as it was meant to be!
Show me the light, you promised to me
Punish me for the crime, if I committed any
Reckon with me all the smiles with the sorrows
Even though you may be a stranger now
Justice is what my soul needs to heal
My thousand words that I say out loud
Do they make a way to you ?
One wish that I have in my heart
Will you make it true for me ?
Tell me what I mean to you even if its not what it used to be.
For how long it will hurt
For how long to save myself
The pain is like day one
I wish I could love myself the way I love
What should I do
It hurts so much
When will I feel life
I cant handle so much
What did I do
What should be done
I am so lost
What should I accept
What do I need
I need to understand
When will there be peace
When will I breathe
I am not so strong
The days when trauma is louder than love
.......AND when tears are more than peace
The days when absence is heavier than hope
.......AND when distance is larger than efforts
The days when hurt is bigger than life
.......AND when silence is stronger than care
The days when journey is longer than company
.......AND when yearning is bulkier than comfort
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Those are the days...when I need you the most.
Que: ..........................?
Ans: Choose your pick
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Unthinkable happens
We take what we get
No one rescues you
Change is uncomfortable
Extraordinary stories have ordinary people
Want is a want, need is a need.
Failure is real
To each their own
There is always a price
How long can you be strong?
Love changes forms
Time will tell.
Zindagi hai ek.. zaya na kar
In udasiyon main waqt bitaya na kar...
mauka jab bhi mile, muskuraya kar
kismat se milti hai chahat use azmaya na kar
baat choti ho ya badi, suljhaya kar
koshish kiye ja himmat yu hara na kar
pyar ke sahare chal nafrat bhool jaya kar
waqt hi to hai nikal jayega, bas bharosa kar
Zindagi hai ek, zaya na kar.
Take action - An inch of movement will bring you closer to your goals than a mile of intention.
Learning about life in the ways I didn't ask
Wish we were all real and not hide behind a mask
How could I know it all and still be so confused
Walking an unknown path leaves me all unamused
Silence takes over, even though I have a lot to say
Tired of this burden with each passing day
Constantly wondering the pain and its reason
Broken enough to accept any decision
Life can never stay the same, no matter how hard we try
Time is a thief and it will run by.
Aansoo khushi ke ho ya ho gam ke,
Aankho se to khud ki hi girte hain
Jab khud ko hi sambhalna hota hai har baar,
To log jane kyun milte hain ?
Mana ki zindagi ka tareeka hai ye,
Aur din sabke kabhi na kabhi badalte hain
Kya bas ek kitaab main doob kar,
Is umr ke sare din guzar sakte hain ?
Jo hona tha wo ho hi gaya,
Aur dil sabke abhi bhi sache hain...
Chahe kitna bhi soch le ham,
Kismat ke hath hi sare patte hain
Waqt hi hai jo samjhata hai sab kuch,
Lekin bas tajurbe lagte hain ...
ek din aisa aayega shayad, jab kahenge ham, ki ham zindagi ko khoob samajhte hain !!
What is ego ? - Self esteem or Self importance ?
I hope after all this time, in this life or another..
when our eyes meet
you still remember when it all started..
I hope after all this time, in this life or another..
when you see me
we forget why we parted ..
I hope after all this time, in this life or another..
when we breath the same air
the world stops running like always
I hope after all this time, in this life or another..
when you feel my hug
all our hurt is healed
I hope after all this time, in this life or another..
when our paths cross again
we can still love each other 💔
Its hard to let go because
- it really hurts
- you cared
- it is scary
- because you thought you ll never have to
- because you created a story with a different ending
- because your reality feels incomplete
- it mattered
- it feels unfair
- you miss the version of yourself that you were
- it was left unfinished
- you have things left unsaid
- it felt like home
B U T ...
Sometimes you have to let go..
let go of the people..
let go of the places..
let go of all the memories..
let go of all the broken things..
let go of all what you used to be ...
let go of pain...
let go of suffering ...
let go so that you can save yourself
let go of everything so that you can be what you are meant to be..
The right person will know how to hold your love.
The right person will not leave you when its rough.
You will not have to quiet the way you care.
You will never feel like you dont want to share.
You will never feel sorry for loving too much.
You will never doubt the intentions and such.
One day you will be found and met
One day all the confusions will shut.
One day all the fights will have a deeper meaning.
One day you will be someone's favorite thing.
The right people will always stay
The wrong people do not matter any way.
My soul was stirred and heart was touched.
The gift of love that I may have deserved.
You shook my existence and took me along
But, in your heart, I will always belong.
Nostalgia of all the happiness, good times and laughter
Will never be shadowed by this distress and disaster
I so miss sharing with you my deepest fear and every pain
But, your scent... however has always kept me sane.
Pondering on every single reason, why I fell apart
Loosing grip on life, holding my wounded heart.
Even though, every single hope scares me to death
But, I still cherish the day our eyes met.
Time can give you only time and nothing else.
It will give you time to get used to of the new conditions.
It will give you time to build more memories over the past painful memories so that you can have some courage to not be stuck in the past.
It will give you time to process, analyse and reason with yourself about your situation and that can bring you peace.
It will give you time for circumstances to change.
It will give you time for mindsets to change.
It will give you time to forgive yourself and forgive others.
It will give you time to make necessary changes.
It will give you time start again but with experiences.
It will give you time to be prepared for the future.
It will give you time to explore and feel the fresh air.
With the special gift of time, healing is inevitable.
But how quickly you want to be healed will depend on what you do with time. Maybe in reality, you'll grieve forever or not get over the loss of a bond. But, you ll heal and you ll rebuild yourself may be as a different person with a hole in it.
The truth is that we will never be able to experience other person's emotions irrespective of any amount of love, connection, understanding or communication, especially in a conflicting situation. There is always a difference between what is being told vs what is being heard or understood (Thanks to our mind, heart, circumstances or energy around us)
Any conflicting situation will ask for your actions and reactions. As a human, this reaction is for yourself & to yourself, with the intention to protect your own self.
The first and foremost is to make them aware of your emotional state but IRL we will always place our emotions over others.
To prevent being in a reactive situation, Curb your expectations.
A lot of arguments in relationships stem from one person’s expectations of the other. As long as you put high expectations on another person, you are bound to be disappointed. Remember that the other person cannot, cannot protect your energy over theirs.
They do not know what you expect from them. Even if they did, they have no obligation to obey your commands. You only have control over yourself, not other people. So while it is okay to have high expectations of yourself, doing it for things out of your control is only going to lead to disappointment. In that moment you feel seniority of emotions going away. It can happen because -
1. Blame - You blame them for not reading your mind.
2. Submission - You submit to their approach which does not align with yours.
3. Lack of Confidence - You have no confidence to challenge their reaction.
In all the above scenarios, you feel the your seniority of emotions going away leading to disappointment if it happens after
To remedy a reactive situation, Do not let it affect you.
When you know the reason of loosing seniority of your emotions, it becomes much easier to close the loop and get peace. It helps you decide what to go after and if its worth it. It helps you decide the boundary for yourself and work on yourself rather than expecting the other person to "fix" or "change" It helps you to take the control and move on with a conscious path.
In the end, everyone is going through things so forgive even without getting an apology.
When we are attached to someone or something, we have the fear of losing the person or the relation, and we think that it will not last forever.
Some of our attachments can be good for us but some can affect us mentally.
Any emotional attachment will start as fondness and belief in the happiness that it brings.
But, if we are careless, some emotional attachments can control our lives, altering the way we think and act.
Decisions help us to think clearly and make good choices for not allowing our emotions to rule our lives.
You can do this by observing yourself, accepting change, lowering expectations and with self correcting behavior.
But associating the idea of happiness with another person can lead to an illusion which is surrounded by expectations and that it will last forever.
The harsh truth in the fact that nothing lasts forever and there are circumstances which are not always in your control can help us to be more realistic and more appreciative of the present.
But above all these fleeting and temporary relations and bonds, life brings you those anchors in life without them life is unimaginable.
Hold them tight and make them your forever. 💔
